#2 Photo-4-Fun on Sunday - I miss Beach.

its Sunday...

*ridiculous me as Afro girl who miss to go to the beach!

;P

Sugar dan Bun.

my car reached 8888km yesterday,

when we were on our way to here...

Sugarbun. at Kuching Central.

Kuching Central baru lagi.

belum sampai sebulan pun opening.

so,lepas niaga semalam.

tringin pulak nak pergi Kuching Central.

cuma nak jalan2,tringin pulak nak tengok apa yang best kat situ.

sampai sana, jalan2 pusing2.. 

belum banyak lagi kedai yang dah bukak.mmg x banyak yg dah opening.

tak lama lepas pusing2,perut cakap dia lapar.

wahh.'perut cakap' ok. :P

so i dengan 'him' singgah lah ke Sugarbun nak isi perut yang lapar itu.hehe.

pasal makan ni mmg kegemaran. ;)

we both really love to eat. a lot!

especially, me.

 =_='

'him'

what we eat.

see something different which not from this fast food restaurant?

yes.nasi lemak dari luar(jualan sendiri) bawa masuk Sugarbun.hehe.

good good savings. tettt  :P

look like he's getting thinner.

and

she's

getting

.........................

tembams.

=_='

Simple Saturday - 8888

yesterday, 

on 8.09pm.

it reached 8888km..

lucky eight. hope it will always bring luck.

and always lucky...    :)

be good always ya my sweet little car! :)

Eat-a-lot on weekends.

a day before chinese new year.

i went out with 'him.

then we decided to have lunch together.

most difficult thing went we want to go lunch is always....

'where do we want to have lunch..'
really.

why so hard to decide where to lunch.
especially, me.
 =_='

then i think and think and think.

and i feel like want to eat chicken rice at Singapore Chicken Rice.

so,we went there..

as i entered the restaurant.

i was kinda like.. "waaa..CNY is so soon..oh, its the day after tomorrow!"

this was because there's so many CNY decorations in the restaurant.

its everywhere!

which i like!

cos suddenly i feel like... i'm in China..

wahh.haha. :D

i'm in china.

oops..stop dreaming. :P

this girl wants to eat something kinda Chinese style.

Roasted Chicken Rice, Salted Fish Bean Sprout, Black Pepper Fish.

for two tummy only!

what i like about SCR.. they always have promotional drink that comes together with the Chicken rice.

its seasonal. every month have different promotion drink i guess.

this month Lime Drink is the promotion drink.i like!

these mean that you only have to add 50 sen for the drink! cheap. rite? 

good good savings! hehe..

the glass also big. mmg puas hati..

boleh senyum lenggang perut senang hati bila keluar dari restaurant ni :D

On Sunday,i went to my little cuzzie birthday party.

was celebrated at Marrybrown.

not many photos taken.cos i was so so hungryyyy...

before i went to the bday party, me and my mom busy finding presents for the bday girl.

its quite tiring..and we don't eat at all until we arrived here.its about 3pm!

i never had lunch that late now.thats made me too hungry i think.huhuhu.

the birthday party overall was really fun!

when i saw those kids playing games somehow i wish i could be a cute little kid again.

:P

fun right life as a kid. no worries bout any problem.

just enjoying their self playing here and there.

oh.i want!

can u see the birthday girl? 

the one in the middle with the white dress and headband :)

Some kind of reality.

if i could turn back time, i want to go back to school.
primary or secondary..i don't mind.
being a school student is one of the best time in life. maybe.
but i don't enjoyed it as much as i should.
and for that, i kinda regret.

i kinda regret somehow because i just don't do what i wanted to,
i don't be how i wanted to when i'm in school.
i am a really shy girl.
especially when i'm in school.
oh. stupid me. =_='

somehow i hate myself because of that. really really hate myself because of that.
its so hard for me to interact to other people cos i am crazily shy.
damn it!

its so hard for me to introduce myself to someone i want to knew and make friend.
its so hard for me to find good topics to talk to someone i just knew.
i rather zipped up my mouth like forever rather than talking.

cause somehow if i talk, i will suddenly talk bout something so weird without i noticed.
and if i already noticed, then i will make myself feel like full of redness and shyness all around my face.
damn.
i can only be a normal me to family and friend which i already really close with.

and you know what.
some of it still playing around me till today. =_='

i read in some articles and a blog whose has quite a same experienced like me.
from that,i knew that this kind of condition called inferiority complex.

here are some about it..

An inferiority complex arises from imagined or conditioned feelings of inferiority. 

An individual experiencing repeated situations in which he or she feels less than others (conditioning aspect) may imaginatively “blow out” their understanding of the experiences beyond what would seem reasonable to another person (imagination aspect).

Some situations in which feelings of inferiority may arise are:

• Parental attitudes and upbringing – disapproving, negative remarks and evaluations of behavior emphasizing mistakes and shortcomings determine the attitude of the child before the age of six.^[1]
• Physical defects – such as disproportional facial and body features, weight, height, strength, speech defects and defective vision cause inferiority complexes.^[2]
• Mental limitations – cause feelings of inferiority when unfavorable comparisons are made with the superior achievements of others, and when satisfactory performance is expected.^{[citation needed]}
• Social disadvantages and discriminations – family, alleged race, sex, sexual orientation, economic status, or religion.

Source : Wikipedia

after reading this, i can feel that its kinda related to myself.

i always feeling this way.

sometime feeling like better die than facing things that need to face others.(wahhh..over :P)

things like..... which what i personally feel when i will meet people or during i meet people around me.

imagination aspect. yes. 

yes for before. no for now..

good improvement for myself i think :)

feel less then others. yes

when i feel others look better than me,have more self-confident than me..

i think sometime i'm still feeling this way..

physical defects. yes. 

my size always bigger than the other girls around me.

parental attitudes and upbringing. yes for before.

i think this related to my little faith since i was born.

no relation with physical and mental. just some-kind of faith..

i knew bout it my age 6 years old.

when i grew up,about 12-14 years old, 

this little faith playing in my head.

i just can't accept it.

the feeling to think bout my little faith was too strange for me at that time.

its like i can't accept it.

it make myself down. so down.

for that, i am blaming..but i can't voice it up.

to make myself feel relieved, i often cried.

i am still so young at that time.

but now,i can fully accept my little faith..

for me.. 'him' also teached me a lot about faith in life. :')

my little faith.something that already written for me,for my whole life.

accept it thankfully with full of heart. no regret and no blaming. 

:)

good night.

No Cinema.

i did mentioned that i wanted to watch movie at cinema for maybe today but tomorrow.

but..today and yesterday i did't went to cinema..sobs :'(

i was clueless to watch which movies..

no movies kinda interesting to me and suits my taste.

so, to avoid wasting money, i'm not watching any movie and i don't go to cinema!

even shopping mall,i don't go!

cos so many shops closed during cny..

so i am spending more time at home these two days.

which was better. i think.

:)

but at home i'm not totally doing nothing.

i'm quite busy at home.

surveys something for a 'big thing'..hint* :P

gonna tell later.

dunno when. ;)

hope i can have a traditional body massage at a village in the time near by.

maybe next month, or the other month.

feeling so nervous ok. it quite scary.

the massage really hurt. but it is really good for body.

hopefully after the massage my body can get better as usual or even better..!

a little scared actually. huhu... cos the massage kinda hurt!

oh.doing the massage only it hurts like hell.

like hurt so much! really.

after massage,you'll never feel anywhere even.

but you'll feel so so much better! really.

oh.its still early now.

i'm already feel so sleepy.. 

happy chinese new year and good night.

(heart says: hope to have a better day for tomorrow and days after & murah rezeki selalu  :) )