after her birthday celebration.

continuity of the previous post.
some photo shoot after the party.

"right..left..right..left.." is what we were saying at this moment.hikhik..

supposed to be catch the girl! shoot but... *why am i looking down.hukhuk.

yeah..i know i am short.

=__=

smile! BIG smile :)

smile~ SMALL smile..hiks. :)

heart says: nothing much to say here.
so many things happened previous days.
i dunno how to share it here.
maybe i will share later or maybe...never.

triple S. Saffa's Sweet Sixteen.

 

8th of march.
i was invited to....

Saffa's Sweet Sixteen (triple S!) birthday celebration!

oh. to share with you..

Saffa is my cousin.

who live just beside of my house.

she turns 16 years old this year.

may her life fill with full of happiness around :)

her birthday party celebration was held at Starbuck Percint 88 in Kuching.

around 3.30 pm.

and i am amazed,i arrived there at 3.30 pm sharp.

notmore or less.hehe. over :P

i went there together with my bro Syafiq, Cousins: Dek in, Ctea, Alin, Wani.

yeah. 6 persons in a car.

i think we're quite look like sardines in a can as my car not big enough.

especially those who sitting at the back.hehehe.

i'm the driver of the day.so i am fine. hiks ;)

anyway, it was still okay and not so crowded when we on our way to reach Starbuck.

but then, its getting more more crowded after the birthday party!!!

do you know why???

jeng.... jeng.... jeng....

because we 'tapau' (bring back home) lotsssss of good foooooood!!!

hahaha...

my auntie (mom of birthday girl) asked us to tapau so many food!

its reaally a lot of them.

which we will not say 'no'

ahaks!

but its not just food.

she also ask us to bring the flower balloons,round ballon and drinks as well.

with made my car more more crowded! 

went to the birthday party happily,

be there happily,

going back home happily and thankfully with full stomach and 

not to forget, many 'tapau' to eat at home. 

:D

here i show you some photos taken during the birthday party....

 

the birthday girl, Saffa.

 :)

 

big laugh of mine. 

:P

 

smile!

 

pointing the birthday girl.

cute birthday cake!

and its yummy!!!

red velvet cake inside.

good good food and snacks with nice nice presentation :)

 yumsss

 

sweet 16 cutie cupcakes

 

cookies named Saffa :)

 

my fav! lets 'tapau' for more! hehe.

 

you want hershey's to hug or to kiss you? 

come tell me now baby. ;P

 

i choose the dark one!

 

mini pizza..delicious.

 

Happy 16th Birthday beautiful princess!

may god bless you~ :)

will share more later...... :)

zoo in the making?

i'm getting closer with a kitten which come to my house bout few weeks ago..


and suddenly,



 i'm a pet lover..





here's the story.....
;)





in before,


in my sleep, in my dreams..


i always dream that...






i have pet.



and i love it so much.





one of it is a cat..maybe that kitten is the one from my dream which comes out to the real world.
hehehe. *whatever :P




last Saturday,




i went to a pet shop.

which have two owls.

my oh my...

i reallly love it.

feel like i want to pet it!




and... i also wanted to pet little turtle..




not just that....




i also feel like want to pet rabbit..

yes.because they are so adorable and cute.




not to forget...sugar glider is also part of my dream.

as my pet..

cos its so unique..





urm..

why suddenly i really love many pets at once?

i always dream of them.




weird.but true.


oh.
if i bought them all,my house will become a zoo!
don't forget to buy tickest to see them!

hahahaha kidding! :P






and
the only thing i don't want to pet is...

frog.

:P

cat in a box.

why..





i still stay in the same box..






unlike others.







why..



why..




why..






will there be sun shine after this rain?




if yes,



then



when?













....................................... *silence













urm...





it's ok..





i'll keep waiting..









:)




(Tuhan.. permudahkan lah perjalanan kami..)

jambatan buluh.

i did share some photo of Kampung Budaya Sarawak or
Sarawak Cultural Village(SCV) before which i copy from google rite...
last week..i reaally went there.
not to jalan-jalan makan angin dan hirup udara segar yg nyaman..
but i was there bcos i sent my cuzzie and her friends.

but the good thing was...
i went there for free! hiks. suka :D
tapi tak lama pun kat situ..
lepas hantar diorang i need to go back home to settle my business.
jalan2 kejap,teman kan diorang,
pastu pulang.
tinggalkan diorang kat situ.

how i wish i can explore more there.
dah lama sangat tak jejak kaki kat situ.
last time i went there went i was 15.
tu pun ikut rombongan sekolah.
kalau x kerna rombongan sekolah,tak merasa la nak jejak kaki kat situ pun rasanya..
so masa pergi hari tu,
sempat lah ke rumah orang ulu, rumah bidayuh dan rumah iban. 3 je.
byk lagi yg x pergi.nak tgk persembahan apatah lagi

yang best,diorang jadikan tempat tu muzium hidup.
kalau masuk kat rumah2 tu,
ada orang yang tengah masak la, tengah buat kraftangan.
yang pakai baju traditional ikut kaum.
rasa macam mmg diorg tinggal kat situ.
mcm betul masuk rumah org kat kampung.
tak rasa masuk muzium semata.
rasa cam pergi ke zaman2 dulu pun ada gak.
hehehe..berangan lebih. :P

rindunya nak makan angin...
lama sangat tak holiday...
harap semakin hari semakin dimurahkan rezeki,Amin..nak kumpul2 duit,g holiday...
pergi somewhere else..out of sarawak..
rindunyaaaaa~.... teringinnyaaaaaa~.....
;)

me.

inside rumah iban.

jambatan buluh.

My bed, My mess.

ohhh...what a nice and lovely day today...
today's weather so so niceeee..oh.i love!
and
today is public holiday! maulidur rasul.

last few days,i do went to survey2 for bed and it sets..
went with my mom, cuzzie and my bro.
choices here not bad at all..
and i found the canopy bed that i like!
but..urhhhh..
it so damn expensive.
and my mom don't like it.

yeahh..
she always don't like what i like,and i always don't like what she like.
that was us. really.
so,i don't buy any bedroom furniture set yet..
cos waiting for the new stocks coming on march.maybe.
due to last CNY,many stocks already bought.

and yesterday i did some shopping..i like!hehehe.
bought some toiletries and pair of electric blue high heels.
my cuzzie treats me..hiks :) thanks sooo much to her..

this morning, i have my breakfast with 'him' at bimmers.
i ate Laksa Penang.. it was so nice! i  like laksa penang so muchhhh.
sedappppp sangat laksa penang kat bimmers..oh.my fav....


rainy day in the morning... having laksa penang and hot tea...
oh.the bomb.
:P

oh.i did mention in my previous previous post in 'This is My Bedroom' that i will share the photos of other corners of my bedroom.
rite? rite? 
so..here they are...

my little messy room : my little world.

the red and the black.

garden or jungle?

 :P

'the aromas' place.

'the instuments' corner

and..

'the messy' part.

oh.pls avoid the mess.
well. my bed, my mess.

:P

Time. 'tik tok'..

Time runs so fast!
it doesn't even wait..even for a while!
ehh..of course it will NEVER-EVER wait.
;)

don't you guys feel like me,that time runs so fast?
just like tik tok tik tok tik tok...
and today is already 1st of February!
goodbye wave to January...

if it can be slower..
i hope i can capture every moment in my life..
to appreciate every single moment that i have,
with every wonderful people around me...
before i 'wave'.

but somehow i feel time getting slower.
sometime i feel it runs fast, but sometime i feel it move slower..
ehh..how is it actually?what happened to me?
hehehe

i think i know why..
like everyone would think and feel. maybe.
feel like it getting slower,
if i feel afraid or nervous to face something that you wish you wouldn't do.

feel like it getting slower,
when i'm waiting. doesn't matter waiting of what. waiting for food to cook perfectly,waiting for person, waiting to break the fast, especially.hehe..
it all feel sooo damn long.

feel like it getting slower,
when i feel so excited to have 'my big' day!
i feel like i can't wait! :D
when i'm thinking of it..it making me feel like times move so slow like turtle..
will share bout my 'big day' here soon.don't decide yet when to share. just can say soon. ;)

Some kind of reality.

if i could turn back time, i want to go back to school.
primary or secondary..i don't mind.
being a school student is one of the best time in life. maybe.
but i don't enjoyed it as much as i should.
and for that, i kinda regret.

i kinda regret somehow because i just don't do what i wanted to,
i don't be how i wanted to when i'm in school.
i am a really shy girl.
especially when i'm in school.
oh. stupid me. =_='

somehow i hate myself because of that. really really hate myself because of that.
its so hard for me to interact to other people cos i am crazily shy.
damn it!

its so hard for me to introduce myself to someone i want to knew and make friend.
its so hard for me to find good topics to talk to someone i just knew.
i rather zipped up my mouth like forever rather than talking.

cause somehow if i talk, i will suddenly talk bout something so weird without i noticed.
and if i already noticed, then i will make myself feel like full of redness and shyness all around my face.
damn.
i can only be a normal me to family and friend which i already really close with.

and you know what.
some of it still playing around me till today. =_='

i read in some articles and a blog whose has quite a same experienced like me.
from that,i knew that this kind of condition called inferiority complex.

here are some about it..

An inferiority complex arises from imagined or conditioned feelings of inferiority. 

An individual experiencing repeated situations in which he or she feels less than others (conditioning aspect) may imaginatively “blow out” their understanding of the experiences beyond what would seem reasonable to another person (imagination aspect).

Some situations in which feelings of inferiority may arise are:

• Parental attitudes and upbringing – disapproving, negative remarks and evaluations of behavior emphasizing mistakes and shortcomings determine the attitude of the child before the age of six.^[1]
• Physical defects – such as disproportional facial and body features, weight, height, strength, speech defects and defective vision cause inferiority complexes.^[2]
• Mental limitations – cause feelings of inferiority when unfavorable comparisons are made with the superior achievements of others, and when satisfactory performance is expected.^{[citation needed]}
• Social disadvantages and discriminations – family, alleged race, sex, sexual orientation, economic status, or religion.

Source : Wikipedia

after reading this, i can feel that its kinda related to myself.

i always feeling this way.

sometime feeling like better die than facing things that need to face others.(wahhh..over :P)

things like..... which what i personally feel when i will meet people or during i meet people around me.

imagination aspect. yes. 

yes for before. no for now..

good improvement for myself i think :)

feel less then others. yes

when i feel others look better than me,have more self-confident than me..

i think sometime i'm still feeling this way..

physical defects. yes. 

my size always bigger than the other girls around me.

parental attitudes and upbringing. yes for before.

i think this related to my little faith since i was born.

no relation with physical and mental. just some-kind of faith..

i knew bout it my age 6 years old.

when i grew up,about 12-14 years old, 

this little faith playing in my head.

i just can't accept it.

the feeling to think bout my little faith was too strange for me at that time.

its like i can't accept it.

it make myself down. so down.

for that, i am blaming..but i can't voice it up.

to make myself feel relieved, i often cried.

i am still so young at that time.

but now,i can fully accept my little faith..

for me.. 'him' also teached me a lot about faith in life. :')

my little faith.something that already written for me,for my whole life.

accept it thankfully with full of heart. no regret and no blaming. 

:)

good night.

Lazy-mazy Me..

lately rasa sangat malas lazy-mazy nak update blog.
cos nak memanfaatkan cuti seminggu lebih la konon kan.
hehehe
i cuti niaga seminggu lebih,
so banyak la masa yang terluang and leh update blog ni panjang lebar lah sepatutnya kan..
but i don't know why...

my blogging mood pun nak cuti jugak? =.=
hurm.
maybe cos i'm not feeling well..
haritu demam..sekarang dah ok..
cuma batuk dan tekak yang masih menggatal.
tak suka la tekak gatal.menci!
pastu batuk sampai rasa cam nak nangis.huhh.
hope i will get well soon. Amin..
cos esok dah mula niaga..

risau jugak tak sihat masa niaga.
feeling tu kacau ok.
nak niaga,mood kena bagus.
cos kena berdepan dengan orang.
takkan nak tarik muka masam tu kan?kan?kan?
hehehe

penghujung cuti nih,tak da lah kemana2 pun..
takda activity sangat selain family party for new year's eve last saturday (31.12.2011)..
photo pun tak update lagi. malas sungguh.
cuti ni kebanyakan masa dok rumah.ada la jugak keluar jalan2.

oh. lepas family party sambut new year tu..
the next day(01.01.2011),
all of us went to the bowling centre at Riverside Majestic..
best.new atmosphere after the renovation.suka!
just so crowded and noisy...agak memeningkan..tapi ok lah.
all of us enjoy our good time together.
and no photo taken during that whole day.lupa.  -__-
dalam pkul 6 petang baru settle semua game.

and then my sis pulak nak belanja makan seafood kat Topspot.
rezeki datang mana nak tolak kan.. :P
so, ke sana lah kami.
tapi tak semua yang ikut.
and again,i forgot to take even one pic!
omg. i dunno what happened to me that day.
maybe bcos i'm not feeling well due to cough and sore throat.
and i want to spend my quality time with my family and my love. ;) wink*

and on (02.01.2011); which was semalam..
keluar jalan2 with 'him'..
tak plan nak shopping.
cos memang nak keluar to spend our time together.
cos lately both of us rasa cam dah lama tak spend our time together.
padahal tak lah lama sangat pun tak keluar dating.hehe.

kami g the hills shopping mall.
ada big sale kat MNG.
ingatkan dah takda lagi sale.
but my sis told me MNG still ada sale.
so, i pun teringin lah nak cuci2 mata tengok apa yang best dan cantek.
at first mmg nak window shopping only.
but i end up....
buying a denim legging.
suka! very comfortable!
plus discount, of cos bertambah-tambah suka ittew. hiks. :)

and then we went to Boulevard..
tak beli apa2 pun.
tapi lama sangat tengok2 barang kat situ.
pastu singgah Kubah Ria to have dinner.
i ate Nasi Kerabu...yummyh!
and he ate Nasi Goreng Cornbeef...also yummyh!

hehe..
itu saja coretan ku kali ini..

esok dah mula niaga..tapi masih mood nak cuti...hurmm.. sedih :(
anyway,
i know must be strong for tomorrow and another day onwards...





(heart says: be strong anne.throw all ur laziness!)